Saturns Return

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Saturn hit me hard. Now on to better and brighter things.

On a brighter note, things went well today.

Free lunch w the folks. And the okay from the grandma. Looks like I'm Ohio bound.

A much needed make up with C. Who is getting married to the other C on May 22!

A lucky find of free boxes! Thank you Petsmart recycling bin.

Sweet day w Leia.

To cap the night off, some quality tea/doughnut/free coffee and chocolate chip time with the Bailey/Ortega fam. Lovely little show put on by R.

Happy 30th Birthday green eyes. Hope your day tomorrow will be as good as mine was today.

Leaving 760

Things have been...hectic. I've been trying my hardest to stay positive. 

It has been like this for quite some time. Every aspect of my life has been in decline. Friends, Romance, College, Finances... all at an all time low. I am very tired of people telling me what I am. I'm done listening.

I am currently getting over a serious cold. Once the morning light hits, I am collecting boxes to pack my belongings. I'm posting the things I don't quite need. Starting a new. I do feel better when I have less. I love my belongings too much. They do not bring me happiness. A lesson I forget. 

I am leaving this treacherous house and it's bad memories. Leaving this city and it's false hope. I'm packing a bag and going north. I won't be too happy with the cold but I'm headed to Columbus to stay with my grandmother. Take care of her for a while. Spend time with her before she passes in a few years. Hang out with my brother and get to know my sister-in-law for the first time. Or, at least, I hope to get to see them. I've been told they are a bit socially isolated. After a month or two of that, off to Texas! I'll work in my sister's new Vietnamese restaurant. Hopefully, I'll be a good help rather than a nuisance. I know she'll work me to the bone, but maybe I won't mind if I'm supplied with a 24 hour Vietnamese diet. Oh, yeeeaahhh. Next? I want to save up enough to visit the rest of my relatives in Colombia. That will be my absolute favorite. Beautiful places and missed faces. Hopefully, Imalla will still be there. She's my favorite. It will be wonderful to see them all. 

I love A with all my heart, but at times, there's a sliver of ice and my actions reflect on that. It isn't me. I haven't been me in a long while. I need to find that happy girl again. The strong one. The one that doesn't get jealous. The one that doesn't assume the worse. The one that sees the good in people. 

Exercise will be the key. Wellbutrin and exercise.