Happiness Challenge

Day 1

1. Cynthia's parents bought me a beautiful box chock-full of moon cakes. I learned my favorite flovers are red bean and lotus. She, also, taught me the story behind moon cakes and why they are only available once a year (kind of like Girl Scout cookies).

2. I cleaned the entire kitchen. Even the laundry room! It's not sp bad cleaning if I have a tv in the room. Psych ftw!

3. Tried a new dish tonight from Andrew's work, Alpine Balery. A delicious dish that had small bite size bread thingies that reminded me of the cheesy bread that is so popular in Colombia. They were placed into a brisket stew like bowl.  A good dish to start off the autumn. Especially, on stormy days like today.

Andrew - You had symphonic farts last night.
Me - Blame your sister, she fed us tacos.

I drank milk an hour ago. He's in for another musical night.

I can't wait for the day I have a career like job. And money. Money would be nice. Hearing a friend say "I bought two feet of ribs" and "a crock pot isn't expensive, it's just $20" enraged me. Especially, coming from a "best" friend who knows my financial issues. Insensitivity is killing me lately. I'm not sensitive. You're just insensitive. I'm not cruel or unforgiving but I am no longer lowering my standards because other people don't meet them.

I know things could be better.

Chris

It's heartbreaking to see a random object through out your day that holds no significant value to me. Yet, it held a significant value to a dead loved one.

 I remember the above alarm clock with have the soldier yell until you hit snooze or woke up and turn it's annoying self off.  Came across a picture of it on the internet and it brought me back to 6 or 7 years ago when Meagan and Chris lived with her parents at the townhouse in Chattahoochee Landing. Chris worked in construction and would constantly be playing Resident Evil. He would always follow the official video game guide. He lent me Bully's. I still have it.  He loved cars, rap, country music, and fixing things. Chris made the WORST dad jokes. 'Deez nuts will forever remind me of him. Chris and I had almost nothing in common except loving Meag. 

I guess I should call her more often. She seems happy now though. :)

Lasers=Rick

Military Alarm = Chris

Let's hope my next post won't be about my dead uncle and friend. 

Laser Pointers

Laser pointers will forever remind me of Rick. He loved them. The more extravagant the better. He loved showing his collection off when people came to visit him. He was like a big kid showing off his toys.

Thanks for the Adventure

I'm having the hardest time trying to focus. Ever since I quit smoking my ADD has spiraled out of control.  Classes have started two weeks ago and I have not yet bought my books or read anything for class. I have to get myself together. Get more organized. Clean. Prioritize. Exercise. Say yes to events.

I am on a path to better myself. Unfortunately, that means separating myself from certain elements. I want passionate people that inspire me in my life. Things are unclear as to what the right answer is but I am keeping a positive outlook. Separating from those you love is almost as difficult as quitting cigarettes.

Healthier Choices and an Important Proposal!

I haven't smoked in 1 MONTH! 

I did it!!! One whole month. My last cigarette was at July 15 at 9:30pm.  I cheated once on the third day but that was 4 weeks ago and I don't count it. It was a stale old cigarette and I didn't smoke the whole thing. Andrew contributed to that cheat too. He knows what he did!

There have been a lot of benefits of quitting. I breathe easier, tastes are stronger, smells are stronger, I sleep less, I have more energy, my libido is stronger, I dream every night, but, unfortunately, I want to eat non-stop. Which is a problem because...

Cynthia and Chris are engaged! 

And I'm the maid of honor! I need to start losing weight. I want to look pretty in their wedding photos.

Chris asked her to marry him on a tiny heart island at Lake Lanier on July 26th. I had to keep it secret for four days. And prior to that, he told me a lie about his plan to propose which involved getting down on one knee on top of a Colorado mountain, but he thought I would leak it to her. Psht. What kind of person would do that!? It was apart of his plan. He wanted me to tell her so that it would throw her off because she's been questioning his every move. She's wicked observant.  When I kept my mouth shut, it ruined his plans, and he finally included me in his true plans. She mentioned two days prior to the proposal that she wanted an engagement party right after the engagement, so I had 24 hours to throw a party! 

All after a night of Andrew drinking after he promised he wouldn't drink, and on the fourth day of my quitting smoking. I was not a pleasant person. 

However, I NAILED it.

Lan (bridesmaid), me, Cyn, Chris and Bekah (the other party helper!). 

Chris added a cute saying to his fridge from the Bible.

Cyn and Chris entering the surprise engagement party!

Chris' younger sister help decorate.

Food table! =) Bekah decorated the flowers. Hannah helped set up the banner. 

Not sure who blew up the balloons, I was upstairs getting ready. It looks great!

 I felt like smoking the entire day, but I didn't! I think it was a great hit. Even though, I had to be by myself for the longest time. I hid in Chris' room. Bekah was incredibly helpful but incredibly competitive and annoying. Once everyone arrived an hour early, they helped the decorating process speed up. We invited all three sets of parents. The only ones missing was Cynthia's college roommate Stephanie, Andrew, and Holen. 

Fast forward to now. 

Cynthia bought her dress today! Who knew she is into the Disney princess look? 

She's like a fluffy cloud I wanna sit in! She's going to look gorgeous. I can't wait for the special day. They still need to find a venue and deal with the little stuff. They are leaving me in charge of decorating. I, also, have to throw a bridal shower and bachlorette party. Oh, all on no job. Yeah. Ermitage kept lying about making me full time. I love Peter, but he was easily taken advantage of. I'm afraid Vanessa convinced him that he didn't need me and that she could do it with a raise.

Anyways, I have to start eating healthier. So I can fit into a size 10 dress. That'd make me happy! The bridesmaids are going for this look: 

School starts in one week. All five classes are film classes. It's going to be a busy year. 

I've got to get shit in order.